I tried to take my usual walk around the pond between shifts and trees were downed from last night’s storm.
I climbed over and around 3 of them to lose to the 4th because of too plentiful poison ivy. I’m already treating a large patch of poison oak on my arm from Katherine having brought me a leaf and smearing it on the inside of my elbow. I just didn’t want to risk another large patch of itchy rash.
Anyway, since I couldn’t do my normal laps of walking, I took a bunch of pictures, including a whole bunch of pictures of the Great Blue Heron which has returned to the pond for this season. There is also a Green Heron but I couldn’t get close enough to it for pictures, last week I managed a couple of blurry ones. I tried to catch fish in my pictures but the water has darkened and I don’t think I caught them very well. Last week I caught a few fish, so I’ll post both rounds of pictures. I was buzzed by a Vulture several times and caught it in one of the Heron pictures, it was really a good albeit exercise free lunch break.
Then I went to work early to sit on their pub patio which has a wonderful overhang for shade. I watched a mother Red House Finch feed her babies. There were 4 nests in view, but only one momma was brave enough to visit with me sitting watching. It was a good relaxing moment.
May you have good bird watching and time in nature. May you be blessed with awe and wonder of all the beautiful creatures around us. May you have good relaxing moments and enjoy the weather as much as possible. May you have good days mostly.
After yesterday’s BS I need a pallet cleanser post. Monday was a day off and I needed nature.
We did a minimum of chores early in the morning. Then Nathan and I, with our two toddlers, left for the day.
Nathan is about halfway done cleaning gutters and our yard and patio were far enough along that we deserved the break. Our teenager also deserved a break from watching the two toddlers the whole time Nathan and I were working on big projects.
So she stayed home with the dog and the rest of us went to fulfill my desire for a specific nature retreat. I was in massive withdrawal of what used to be our favorite place to camp.
Our clothing-optional pagan-camp had closed for most of 2020 because of Covid. Being an outdoors retreat most all events are held during fair weather months, and that was when covid shutdowns happened here. Late last fall they had reopened with major adjustments to occupancy limits and functionality.
If we make the assumption that the rules, created by the powers that be, were all good choices, then what our camp did to meet those demands was appropriate (some events drew thousands of people). However, having gone Monday, it sort of broke my heart. Our beautiful nature retreat was in desperate need of major maintenance because all the festivals that would have funded those projects last year didn’t happen.
The shower house foundation was separating significantly, partly because one of the shower lines had leaked enough to necessitate removing the wall panel behind it and it had not been fully repaired yet, so excess water had flowed into what was once a tiny crack. Now between lengthy spring rains and the plumbing problem, it was now about a two inch gap the entire length of the building. The sinks and showers have not been returned to normal either. Covid spacing was slightly wider than normal spacing so they took a few fixtures out, and they are still stacked in one of the covidized toilet stalls.
So then we went down to what was the beach. The dock was still parked on ‘the beach’ with paddle boats needing some serious TLC. The beach itself was more of a sandy lawn, having been mowed, but not treated for weeds and grass and not having had any sand dropped in several years. The lake itself was full of algae, which festival goers in previous years had taken turns pulling out to keep it thinned down. It was a sad moment acknowledging we were not going to be able to swim or boat on this day.
I was determined to enjoy some of the day though. So we walked around, cooled off in showers, walked some more, and then went up the giant 4 story+ main staircase to the ridge.
The ridge is where main event activities are held. There are two large fire circles, and open field space about the size of 2 or 3 football fields. The biggest festivals held on the ridge can accommodate 50 to 60 vendors quite easily. I showed my kids why it is called the ridge. If you look end to end it is roughly flat, but as you look the short directions it slopes downwards towards tree lines which are the start of major drops. My kids thought that was neat.
At the backside of the ridge is a massive pavilion that hosts musical and theatrical entertainment during festivals. The pavilion has provided seating for about 300 people, but campers often supply their own chairs and so the pavilion has fairly easily accommodated 1500 people for a performance. My kids enjoyed running around the pavilion, climbing up on the stage, and playing in the gravel floor.
Then I took them to see Flora’s Garden. It was very overgrown to the point of impassable. It had not been tended since the end of 2019 I’m sure. I pointed to some of my favorite places from a distance, the one bench at center was one, and the swing at the back was another. My kids opted to climb the trees that separate the vendor space from the pavilion and main fire ring.
Nathan took a stroll through Pixie Sticks and Drum Styx to the first field area to take good cloud pictures. There are several hiking trails that we did not accomplish with our two toddlers on Monday.
We were only the second family to be out at camp on that day so we nearly had the whole area to ourselves. I took a bit of an opportunity to sunbathe naked, and Nathan eventually took his shirt off, still embarrassed by his dialysis port. It caused a whole discussion with my kids as to why it was okay at camp but not okay in our yard. We had to explain to them that or neighbors are very good people but not used to rules allowing for nudity, so it would offend them to see people naked outside. We also added that people who come to camp have allowed themselves a slightly different view and nudity is acknowledged as our Gods’ given skin and natural when weather permits.
I only wish my children had gotten the learning experience of festival. It is when you are seeing people of every age, in a variety of levels of dressed and undressed, and no one cares. It simply is. We are allowed to be our own authentic selves no matter what that means. Camp has never had the pressure of you must get naked to be there. It is truly clothing optional and free from any pressure. It also helps one to feel better about their own body because you realize that there is always someone that is worse off, or different, and sometimes it’s a bit scary and sometimes it’s really beautiful to see the differences. It just helps with acceptance of all bodies and all people being who they are. It is a beautiful experience. I wish that for everyone, because I have benefitted so much from that learning experience.
Anyway, my brief soiree of nudity for some sun did help start that learning moment with my kids, and a line free tan, but more our day was much needed connection with mother earth. We all left camp hot and tired, but more grounded and centered than we’ve been in ages.
I’m only going to share pictures where I am clothed for obvious reasons- the internet is unkind and never gives anything back. Plus pictures do not do full justice to the learning lessons that camp provides in shifting paradigms.
May you have a good time in nature anywhere and anyway you find it. May your soul be cleansed and grounded by Mother Gaea. May you know that we are all beautiful people in our Gods’ given skin doing our best to navigate this thing called life. May you have a deeper understanding of your world and find ways to see your own beauty. May you have ample time to enjoy your days and find goodness in this world. May you understand paradigms and find ways to exist as authentically as possible as much of your time as possible. May Mother Gaea guide and support you in all ways possible each day. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.
One of my clients today (who is also sensitive to energies) noted feeling symptoms similar to mine. She had taken to not eating certain foods because they were affecting her more and causing the symptoms to flare.
I told her pretty much everything except raw veggies and salads were seeming to do that to me, and the result was that I had gone two days of not eating anything except a salad at dinner (and liquids/tea/water). But I’m feeling much better running empty, and my brain is functioning better. I’m also slowly getting stress under control running on empty. It makes no real logical sense based on accepted medical standards. (That’s why Nathan still wants me to see a doc and get checked out, I’m not convinced it’ll do any good.)
Today I had my single serving of raw veggies at about 4pm, and dinner after work was a small salad with shrimp and sauteed zucchini. (The greens were fresh from our garden and amazing.) Otherwise I didn’t eat. Yet, I’m totally fine, and much improved in my sense of well being compared to 3 days ago.
After dinner a Sadhguru video notification spoke of shutting the mind off, and he was comparing uncontrollable thoughts to diarrhea. I joked with Nathan that based on his comments I must be needing to not eat anything, because even healthy whole vegetables are causing that for me. (You’re welcome for the TMI.)
Anyway, joking and TMI aside, I’m glad I’m starting to feel a bit better. Stress sucks.
I also wanted to share a couple more things that have helped me.
One meditation that I used two mornings running seemed to help with bodily sensations. I’ll describe it here:
First acknowledge the divine feminine is mother earth. She is fueled by the great fire within. We see her represented by Pele of Hawaiian mythology, Brigit of Celtic, and Hestia/Vesta of Greek/Roman. The energy of molten lava being at her core enables a great warmth which can be both destructive and life giving.
Then acknowledge that the heavens above are God’s abode. God force draws energy from the sun and air. Christianity acknowledges this well with most any ritual they do, but it is most evident when they draw down the “Holy Spirit” for baptisms and other blessings.
The two elements of divine force meet on Earth’s surface and in all creatures. So, to focus on that for yourself, can enable great healing energy to flow throughout your body and clear lots of negativity and blockages.
Simply sit and place your feet solidly on the ground, and rest your hands on your lap palms up.
Imagine the lava warming the earth beneath your feet and consciously slowly draw that sensation up your legs to your belly.
Then imagine God’s rays shining down upon your head and warming the top of your scalp. Slowly and consciously draw that sensation down your body until it too makes it to your belly.
Once you have both sensations meeting in the belly, consciously allow them to mingle and meet all of your organs. For me, I choose to focus on the warmth while I list off all of the organs and elements of my body that need love and healing.
It takes me a bit, but always helps me feel better, so that is why I shared it here.
The other meditation that has helped a lot recently has been very simple yet very involved. Simply put, I shoot down every negative thought, one at a time. For each one, it is followed by acknowledgement that my inner self feels good and I reach for one feel good thought that opposes the negative. It’s like the “wrong buzzer” from a gameshow, with a pause and then a “what does my inner being really think” moment. You could literally do this for hours and all day, I have before. Lately though, I just do enough of it to calm myself back to even keel and proceed with tasks at hand.
Finally, I took another hour walk at the pond today over lunch (I ended up with well over 10,000 steps again today.) It was overcast and windy, but I still found plenty of beautiful things and got some much needed nature relief. There is a guy that brings his dog to play in the pond and creek pretty much every time I’m there. The dog has so much fun that I couldn’t help but sneak a couple of pictures of pooch happiness.
BTW, I picked up trash while on my walk. It drives me a little bonkers to see trash when there is a bin available just to avoid litter. Plus people are gross. One of the items I very carefully disposed of using an empty box was a used sanitary napkin. Who does that?!?! Of all the litter, that one was the most irritating.
Finally, on the way home this evening there were two bald eagles perched at the top of the tree across from my favorite park: Minor park. I had to stop and take pictures. I’ll take it as a good sign and a reminder to visit that park again soon.
I hope you enjoy my nature pictures.
May you have good Stress relief. May you find meditation very helpful. May you have soothing nature moments. May you understand what is causing you to feel certain ways, and what to do about it. May you feel good mostly and have all the healing you need. May you feel relief and generally better each day. Above all, may you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.