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Prayers Requested.

I’m so used to solving everything on my own, that this is always hard for me to ask. I am asking for anyone that reads this to send prayers.

It may be obvious to my regular readers that I have been contemplating my mortality for reasons other than the virus in the news. That is because I am.

I’ve been in denial about symptoms related to my thyroid concerns, and I feel I have hit a point which I must reach out for assistance.

I suspect I may have a thyroid tumor. I’m going to law of attraction assume that it is benign and that my delay from finances and do it yourself educated guessing and labs is a mere inconvenience to the solution.

My hives keep coming back over and over again , and they are triggered by things that used to be non-issues. This morning I woke with swollen eyelids from extra fluid having built up in my sleep. Plus, I have had to acknowledge continued hair loss, more than my normal amount. I’ve had other skin manifestations, and what used to be a mild occasional pressure in my throat, is now more noticeable and persistent.

I have also been having trouble with depression even though my T3/T4 levels are in a good range, only my TSH is at a bothersome level. It is affecting my desire to do anything as I have a nagging sensation that anything is futility. I also am plagued by thoughts that I know my vortex has all the solutions I seek, but a knowing that I pretty well suck at letting them manifest in my physical reality.

Though I am not really afraid of death itself, I am petrified of pain and suffering, especially because I feel I’ve had more than enough of that as life in general and had hoped for continued improvement. Regardless of the outcome, I know God will look after my family.

What I need (if you would please include in your prayers):

1) A doctor that will genuinely listen to me, everything I’ve done and know, and get straight to the point, but that will also work with me financially. I feel that is the tallest hurdle in this mess.

2) Finances to work out in support of the solution. Or insurance, I’m still uncovered.

3) The solution to be found that has the least impact in all ways. Financially yes, but more so in easy, short, and least amount of pain. If I’m alive I do wish to return to work relatively quickly.

4) To find and maintain the health that I have been seeking for so long.

Since I have already been attempting to solve this on my own for almost 4 months, I need the solution to become evident fairly quickly. Benign or not, 4 months means it’s had that much more time to grow and potentially lead to greater problems. So please also pray for minimal impact on my system.

For those that get better results from informed prayerwork: my name is Treasa Cailleach and I live in Kansas City. This is what I look like:

I will continue to do everything that I know helps, because I would like to live. I do want to be there for my kids and even just a few months ago I still had very big goals that I was determined to accomplish on my own. A large part of me still wants to do them, but it seems the futility is winning more and more.

It is a beautiful day where I sit in Overland Park, KS, I’m going to take some time to enjoy it before I go in to work.

May you find the health you seek. May you know it is not your time. May you know that the universe and God support you. May you have an easy time letting things manifest from your vortex.

Siva Hir Su

I know I’ve said it before.

I told Nathan I was sorry that I’m not able to manage the grand dream of Atira, but that I’d do my best to get a tiny plain Jane version going with our new home. I reiterated that I sincerely love him and always have.

I’m moving in into accepting that it’s just me and Nathan… And God’s help.

I saw a license plate that said ‘I setld’; in full English that’s “I settled”. I probably am doing that, I am giving up on reaching for my big dream. I tried and got my heart broken several times over. I’m deciding that I don’t think I can handle anymore of that and I’d rather go small and find some results, than go big and end up feeling alone and heart-broken again. Dreams can remain dreams. I’ll live in my fantasy inside my thoughts, like when I was a schoolgirl being scolded for daydreaming too much. It’s my easy way of finding creativity, at least when I’m not too busy functioning in daily life.

This Yule I am going to love me for my endurance and intelligence. I’m going to love me for still caring even after everything I’ve been through. I love me for putting family first. I love me for supporting those I love: Nathan, Anya, Ian, Katherine, and pets (even those people that left). I love me for continuing to work so hard and diligently. I love me for continuing to reach for another slightly better step.

This Yule evening, I lit candles and incense on the altars for Lord Shiva. I said a prayer essentially apologizing for being so dense, but thanking the divine presence for attempting to help me anyway. I acknowledged that I knew I was slowing the flow, but can’t seem to heal my brain enough to fix that, and my puzzle is just too complex to maintain perfectly every waking moment. I just want the divine to know I’ve tried and I honor and respect all the divine help I’ve been blessed with.

To celebrate, we decorated with live trees I can plant later in our new yard. We adorned them in LED lights and a few ornaments. And set the table with my decopage plates from last year’s craft activity.

Anya’s gift to us was a homemade meal of pomegranate citrus salmon with roasted brussel sprouts and honey carrots. And we had a toast of sparkling cider.

In the morning Pagan Santa (the original-a jolly elf king) will deliver a very few toys and clothes to my little ones, and a card-game and treat-giftcard to Anya. I found new bras and undies for myself (another first in over a decade), and Nathan couldn’t find anything he really wanted, swearing he feels blessed regardless.

It is a small impromptu Yule to compensate for changes in plans outside of our control.

May you have solid plans with happy family celebrations to bring all your loved ones close for the holidays. May you feel support and love all around you. May you find your healing and allow the flow of God and good to be abundant always. May your home feel like home and may you always find your holidays comfortable. May you have joyous holidays this year and always.

Happy Yule, Joyous Solstice, Blessed Kwanzaa, Happy Hanakha, and Merry Christmas, etc.!

Blessings and much love. Siva Hir Su

New day, new week.

“Everything’s gonna be all right.” -Bob Marley

Yesterday, I did some art, spent time with my family, and had a fairly relaxing good day, mostly at home. It was nice.

The art was nothing spectacular, just a little coloring to make friends with my new space. But I do have an idea for a charcoal drawing I may start working on.

The time with family was mostly ok to good, but Ian is still struggling with misbehaving. We discovered that he poked holes in the head of our djembe drum that Nathan was gifted over a decade ago. After ordering a new head and refreshing my memory of how to re-head the drum, I had a discussion with Ian.

He told me that a certain someone we used to live with was in his head telling him to keep causing trouble. I explained that that particular person was very manipulative and found satisfaction in causing chaos in other people’s lives, and that was why I chose to disconnect and move on from them. I told him he had to make that choice on his own, but that consequences would increase for him if he chose to keep listening to that person. I explained that just because he could hear them, didn’t mean he had to do anything that they said. That they choose to use their abilities for negative reasons, but that he could learn to use his for good. I also stressed that I would think he would choose to do the things that we request, especially since we genuinely love him and have his best interests at heart.

It was at that point that I understood why I kept being told that Archangel Michael was around me. I sent several prayers throughout all of yesterday requesting that the Angels protect all of us, and help my children remove energetic connections to those people. I also sent prayers that they help me forget that person and enable me to forgive the damage done so that my cords would permanently dissolve.

My decision on that person is: I don’t believe they have it in them to heal, I know they are so addicted to several things, including the drama of creating chaos, that they don’t even see their own patterns. We all have things like that, but this is just an extreme case. Regardless, even if they did try to change I don’t think it would stick and thus I don’t foresee ever being able to spend any significant time around them again. So, I do wish and pray for compete disconnection for myself and my family, I do want that to become a series of unfortunate events that I ultimately learn to forgive myself for enabling, and them for continuing to create.

Regardless, I went on to tell Ian that I love him, and that Nathan and I are doing our best to give him tools to control his thoughts and behaviors to improve things for himself. We want him to do well and he just needs to practice the things we’ve been teaching him. I compared it to his writing practice and explained the more he does the meditations and other tricks we’ve given him, the more they will work and things will get easier and easier for him. I gave him 2 days to work on resetting and focusing on practicing those tools. Essentially 2 days free pass, as long as Nathan and I see him putting effort into doing better. I pray that those 2 days, and the near future afterward, the Angels will protect him from intrusive thoughts and mirror anything like that back to the sender. My child needs that fresh start.

Nathan rounded out the day taking Ian to a huge new playground on my way to work. He had a blast discovering the new fun things to be had.

I give thanks that Archangel Michael is protecting me and my family and thanks that each new day brings greater clarity and resources to improve our lives.

May our improvements keep compounding for exponential growth.

Bonus our family vacation is approaching quickly. My mom has agreed to go with us, so there will be a slight detour to Iowa to pick her up and drop her off, but then we’ll have 7 solid days in Great Pond Maine and Acadia National Park the last part of July and first couple days of August. As the time draws nearer I’m finding myself increasingly more excited. I am so looking forward to the distance, fun, exploration, R&R, and possibilities of the trip. I give thanks for everything that has aligned to enable this experience, including house and pet sitters, and finances. Thank you God.