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Seems like wobble.

Great mother is done
She's wobbling too much
Any more and she'll fall
Imbalance too great
Humans: the cause
Too many
Tugging in
All directions
No rest for
The weary

Every couple thousand years
Great messengers are sent
Time is granted
If too many fail
A great calamity
Wraps everything up quickly

I'm loosing
Despite
Best efforts
All things done
As correctly
As possible

My wobble
Our collective
Wobble
Too much stress
With Fun and
Peace
Deficiencies

Inability
To control
Uncontrollable
Some things
Never intended
To be controlled
In the first place

Instructions
Conditioning
Of responsibility
May have been
Inaccurate
Or misunderstood
Relearning
Too costly when
Time is against
My
Our
Side

My preference
To sit quietly
And wait
Feeling the ground

In winter
Everything
Seems dead
Seems barren
Seems bleak

Under the soil
Seeds sleep
Insects burrow
Rabbits tunnel
Bears hibernate
Even fungi
Thrive
All just
Go Deeper

All waiting for
The great thaw
The signal
It's okay
The time to
Reemerge
Anew

Our lives
If meant to be
Will be
If meant to diverge
Will

I simply must
Trust
And wait
Quietly
In stillness
In meditation
In prayer

My Prayer:
That
Thaw
Brings
A new me
A better me
A miracle me
Or simply
A divine me

My focus:
Those seeds
Dormant
Frozen
Yet somehow
Alive
What seeds
Have I planted?
Did I tend them
Well enough?
Did divine really
Fix my mistakes?
Did divine love
Spare my failures?

May the divine
Forgive all
Our lapses
And help us
Restore
Replenish
And renew
Failures in
Perception and
Responsibility
Misplaced

~ Treasa Cailleach

I have sincerely felt like I was dieing the last couple of weeks. I’m angry at God and saddened. If it is me, I’ve done everything I possibly could. If it is my wonderful mom, and I’m just feeling it, then I simply know we both deserve better and she deserves relief. When I’m not screaming at God in anger, I’m spending all of my moments stretching and aligning and breathing. Reaching for peace as much as possible.

May all of our prayers be heard and relief granted in whatever way restores balance to the Great Mother; the most relief for the most of all that is. May we see that all is not lost, and life lies in wait, hibernating for better. May we see how we have done our best, and how it might help restore balance. Above all may we know that we are loved and supported in all that we do.

Om Shanti

Jewel – Hands

This song was stuck in my head this evening.

It has been significant for me since the first time I heard it. It carries deep meaning for me. Perhaps it is a major reason or factor in why I chose to name my blog as I did. All I know is that in watching the video, to make certain I had the right one, I started crying. I hope you understand as I do. Lyrics below.


“Hands”

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we’re all OK
And not to worry ’cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these

I won’t be made useless
Won’t be idle with despair
I’ll gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear

My hands are small, I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn’t steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn’t ever after

We’ll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what’s right
‘Cause where there’s a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing

My hands are small I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

In the end, only kindness matters
In the end, only kindness matters

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

My hands are small, I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

My hands are small, I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken

We are God’s eyes
God’s hands
God’s mind
We are God’s eyes
God’s hands
God’s heart
We are God’s eyes
We are God’s hands
We are God’s eyes


May you know that you are God’s eyes, hands, mind and heart. May you know exactly why you are here and what your impact on this world is. May you know your life has meaning even when you have difficulty seeing it. May you always understand your messages, even when it is as simple as a song stuck in your head. Above all may you know that the divine loves, guides, and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Heal first.

I’m a slow writer because of dyslexia and I only have 30min to convey what I need to say. I apologize for any typos in advance.

Om Mani Padme Hum … The jewel in the lotus. Your heart sparkles with the jewel of healing. Love yourself for surviving it all. Love yourself for knowing you did wrong and wanting to make it right. Love yourself for doing your best even when traumatized and fighting disease. Love yourself because you matter to god. Love yourself because that is the way to heal everything, inside and out, top to bottom, and all around. You are special and even when you’ve done something horrible there is always a way to heal and make amends. That is our purpose here to make amends for worngs from as many places as possible, even and especially when it is our own misdeeds. Make it right and love yourself even more for doing so.

Heal the world.

Heal our bodies.

Those that survived deserve healing.

Everyone alive deserves healing in whatever that means.

Heal my mystery person. I know they didn’t mean to hurt me, and I know the darkness they carry isn’t theirs. They didn’t deserve it to begin with. They deserve to heal.

Heal my brother, I love him. Our childhood was rough and I wouldn’t have made it through without him. I know we have both hurt each other many times over the years and I hope he forgives me because I know I forgive him. He was traumatized more than I, and he managed to survive and have a family. He deserves healing as much as anyone.

Heal my husband. I love him too. He is my light and my love and has always been there for me when I needed loving support. He deserves to be fully healed.

Heal my mom and dad in whatever way that means. They did their best and I forgave them years ago. I love them. They deserve healing.

Heal the system to actually help people the ways that matter. We need answers and fixes for disease damage. We need treatments that first do no harm, and the system needs to put those treatments first and cover them as much as any treatment. There should also be balance and equality in what is offered and covered, if Viagra can be covered for men than abdominal reconstruction should always be covered for women.

We are alive and breathing in this moment. This is our chance to try again. If we all work together and focus on what is needed then we will overcome.

I have had a week of low backs and hips, everyone that has been on my table has struggled with it in some fashion. Feeling safe and secure and like we can move forward is at the heart of that problem. Heal everyone so that they know it is safe to move on in Whatever that means for them. Heal them so that they know they are supported and secure in themselves.

Heal every ion, every atom, every molecule, every cell and organ of every living being in this world. Anything that isn’t truly alive can be transformed into something helpful. Nothing is created or destroyed, but all can be transformed into their best selves and heal.

I call all the archangels, I call of Christ, I call on Shiva, all the divine beings and great masters from all time. Hear my prayers, hear all of our prayers. We deserve healing and we deserve help and now is the time to do so. We are reaching for you help, let it be so.

May we all know that we are loved and supported by the divine. May we all survive this shift. May we all heal and live better lives. May we all know we are loved and forgiven. May we all see the light and allow for miracles in everything.

Om Shanti

Peace to all in the universe.

Prayers Requested.

I’m so used to solving everything on my own, that this is always hard for me to ask. I am asking for anyone that reads this to send prayers.

It may be obvious to my regular readers that I have been contemplating my mortality for reasons other than the virus in the news. That is because I am.

I’ve been in denial about symptoms related to my thyroid concerns, and I feel I have hit a point which I must reach out for assistance.

I suspect I may have a thyroid tumor. I’m going to law of attraction assume that it is benign and that my delay from finances and do it yourself educated guessing and labs is a mere inconvenience to the solution.

My hives keep coming back over and over again , and they are triggered by things that used to be non-issues. This morning I woke with swollen eyelids from extra fluid having built up in my sleep. Plus, I have had to acknowledge continued hair loss, more than my normal amount. I’ve had other skin manifestations, and what used to be a mild occasional pressure in my throat, is now more noticeable and persistent.

I have also been having trouble with depression even though my T3/T4 levels are in a good range, only my TSH is at a bothersome level. It is affecting my desire to do anything as I have a nagging sensation that anything is futility. I also am plagued by thoughts that I know my vortex has all the solutions I seek, but a knowing that I pretty well suck at letting them manifest in my physical reality.

Though I am not really afraid of death itself, I am petrified of pain and suffering, especially because I feel I’ve had more than enough of that as life in general and had hoped for continued improvement. Regardless of the outcome, I know God will look after my family.

What I need (if you would please include in your prayers):

1) A doctor that will genuinely listen to me, everything I’ve done and know, and get straight to the point, but that will also work with me financially. I feel that is the tallest hurdle in this mess.

2) Finances to work out in support of the solution. Or insurance, I’m still uncovered.

3) The solution to be found that has the least impact in all ways. Financially yes, but more so in easy, short, and least amount of pain. If I’m alive I do wish to return to work relatively quickly.

4) To find and maintain the health that I have been seeking for so long.

Since I have already been attempting to solve this on my own for almost 4 months, I need the solution to become evident fairly quickly. Benign or not, 4 months means it’s had that much more time to grow and potentially lead to greater problems. So please also pray for minimal impact on my system.

For those that get better results from informed prayerwork: my name is Treasa Cailleach and I live in Kansas City. This is what I look like:

I will continue to do everything that I know helps, because I would like to live. I do want to be there for my kids and even just a few months ago I still had very big goals that I was determined to accomplish on my own. A large part of me still wants to do them, but it seems the futility is winning more and more.

It is a beautiful day where I sit in Overland Park, KS, I’m going to take some time to enjoy it before I go in to work.

May you find the health you seek. May you know it is not your time. May you know that the universe and God support you. May you have an easy time letting things manifest from your vortex.

Siva Hir Su

I know I’ve said it before.

I told Nathan I was sorry that I’m not able to manage the grand dream of Atira, but that I’d do my best to get a tiny plain Jane version going with our new home. I reiterated that I sincerely love him and always have.

I’m moving in into accepting that it’s just me and Nathan… And God’s help.

I saw a license plate that said ‘I setld’; in full English that’s “I settled”. I probably am doing that, I am giving up on reaching for my big dream. I tried and got my heart broken several times over. I’m deciding that I don’t think I can handle anymore of that and I’d rather go small and find some results, than go big and end up feeling alone and heart-broken again. Dreams can remain dreams. I’ll live in my fantasy inside my thoughts, like when I was a schoolgirl being scolded for daydreaming too much. It’s my easy way of finding creativity, at least when I’m not too busy functioning in daily life.

This Yule I am going to love me for my endurance and intelligence. I’m going to love me for still caring even after everything I’ve been through. I love me for putting family first. I love me for supporting those I love: Nathan, Anya, Ian, Katherine, and pets (even those people that left). I love me for continuing to work so hard and diligently. I love me for continuing to reach for another slightly better step.

This Yule evening, I lit candles and incense on the altars for Lord Shiva. I said a prayer essentially apologizing for being so dense, but thanking the divine presence for attempting to help me anyway. I acknowledged that I knew I was slowing the flow, but can’t seem to heal my brain enough to fix that, and my puzzle is just too complex to maintain perfectly every waking moment. I just want the divine to know I’ve tried and I honor and respect all the divine help I’ve been blessed with.

To celebrate, we decorated with live trees I can plant later in our new yard. We adorned them in LED lights and a few ornaments. And set the table with my decopage plates from last year’s craft activity.

Anya’s gift to us was a homemade meal of pomegranate citrus salmon with roasted brussel sprouts and honey carrots. And we had a toast of sparkling cider.

In the morning Pagan Santa (the original-a jolly elf king) will deliver a very few toys and clothes to my little ones, and a card-game and treat-giftcard to Anya. I found new bras and undies for myself (another first in over a decade), and Nathan couldn’t find anything he really wanted, swearing he feels blessed regardless.

It is a small impromptu Yule to compensate for changes in plans outside of our control.

May you have solid plans with happy family celebrations to bring all your loved ones close for the holidays. May you feel support and love all around you. May you find your healing and allow the flow of God and good to be abundant always. May your home feel like home and may you always find your holidays comfortable. May you have joyous holidays this year and always.

Happy Yule, Joyous Solstice, Blessed Kwanzaa, Happy Hanakha, and Merry Christmas, etc.!

Blessings and much love. Siva Hir Su