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Give love.

Today I worked and received my much needed massage. It was good.

The person I have been trading with, a man named Robb, is a massage therapist I met when we first got to KC. Schedule changes on my side caused us to part ways for years, and I traded with another wonderful therapist for several years. After my first couple of years at the clinic attempting to find a replacement for the second now retired therapist, I decided to reach out and see if we could make schedules match again. I’m glad I did, because he was able to work on connections I was unable to get myself and provided more relief for my arm. It’s at about 98% now, and I have a couple of new ideas to try and get the rest.

He has about 3 more years of practice than I do, so I pick his brain often. We have very different styles, but what we do works and the trades work just fine. He does a ton with energy work and has the connections between tension patterns down so well he often reminds me of things I’m missing with clients. He also does a fair amount of isolated stretching and range of motion together to help release burried or hiding patterns. Something that is a weak spot of mine, I know them both individually, but never managed to get them down well enough to function as a pair in my practice. I have been using some of his techniques a little more lately, so maybe that will change. We have also talked about those elements we share, and I discovered he learned them directly from the source, whereas I learned them second hand. That likely explains differences in how we utilize techniques.

It’s also nice that he knows bicycling, because after my week of biking to work my legs needed love. He was more than capable and I feel so much better all over. My massage was good and very needed, I realized that I trust him as fully and completely as the now retired therapist. I think I love both him and the retired therapist, because they have both invested many hours into helping me take care of my body. I am very grateful for skilled and genuinely caring hands. So now I’m doing my best to keep my relaxation long term.

Later, as Nathan was cooking dinner, Katherine started singing while “playing” piano. After a minute or two it was clear she was singing our mutual favorite MC Yogi sing called “Give Love”. I loved it so much I caught a clip to share. I’ll post that and the original MC version.

Despite time shortage to play on my piano, it seems my daughter has made friends with it just like me.

May you have good massages, plenty of care for your self, and feel good mostly. May you have plenty of relaxation time and find ways to prolong the relief as long as possible. May you have happy moments with your children on very frequent occasions. May you see your children’s talents manifest easily. May you enjoy your days and have millions of reasons to give love away to everyone around you. Above all may you know that the divine loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

I deserve to feel good.

After having found the alignment through the climb my last several posts reflected, I knew I needed to milk it. The feeling place of those high vibration moments needed to do me some major good. It was time to focus on the feelings I want more of in my body and in my world.

Thinking about the joy and freedom felt in camp was a good start, but I want more.

I deserve to feel good and see results that others will also see. I deserve for my entire body to come into alignment, even blood sugars and thyroid function, all the things that doctors document. So far some of that has improved significantly and some of that seems worse. I use seems, because sometimes seeming worse is actually on your way to improvement (detoxing is a really good example of that).

I spent a long time focusing on feeling good in my body. I did my usual moving meditation to snap, crackle, and pop my joints back into alignment. I did some more moving meditation, almost like yoga, to stretch out some of my tight muscle spots. Then I was down to just a few of my extra stubborn areas. One is my right rhomboid. I have had times where other massage therapists spent 20 minutes just on that one muscle and it’s trigger points. Well on this occasion I simple rested my hand (more my finger-tips for ease in reach) on the trigger point and used several visuals to help relax it. My touch was the focus mechanism to ‘put the power there’ (that’s a rough translation of one of the Reiki symbols I use). Then once I engaged the energy in that spot I moved through more intense Reiki symbols. I visualized being She-Ra in her moments of healing (I’m going to write more on that soon). I visualized the muscle being like a pat of butter on a hot skillet. Eventually all of it put together, the muscle did give in and relax. It took a long while, it really wanted to hold on. I really had to convince it that it was off duty and didn’t have to do anything.

Then I moved on from structural elements. I felt for and visualized energy of love in and around my body. I let it start from my heart with loving myself. I thought of all the pieces of myself that I genuinely appreciate. Once I had the feeling of the vibration of self-love, I pushed it around my body mentally. Sometimes I would have to stop and focus on something about an area that could be loved. For instance, my thighs still carry much more adipose that I prefer, so I had to focus on their strength, the fact they can lift 210 pounds in addition to my body weight, the fact that they propel me everyday and everywhere I go. That enabled the love vibration to flow in those areas.

When all was said and done, I felt genuinely spectacular. The only drawback was it took what seemed forever. It was the better part of my Sunday afternoon, and though I didn’t watch the clock, I know it took a couple of hours or more.

My goal is to get to a level of health and focused thought that my process described here is more like a normal meditation. It will probably take much practice over a long while. It seems that most of my basic goals like this take about 9 to 10 months to fruition… Hmmm… I’m seeing a correlation with pregnancy. Anyway, I have noted that I do create positive changes, but it definitely takes a while, and progress still frustrates me on occasion when it’s technically there, but less than desired.

May you have good healing meditative moments. May you genuinely feel self-love. May you convey to your body that you do care for it in all the ways you know of. May your body generally cooperate with you and show you good positive results more quickly and in bigger more noticeable ways. May you know that beyond everything God loves and supports you in all that you do and are.

Om Shanti

My brain hurts, but problem solved AGAIN!

Dad did not get released to me today. I had to have follow up appointments scheduled before they would release him. So I spent all day today figuring that out.

A dozen phone calls and a fax later with much stress, I figured out the solution. He now has a new doctor booked near my home, and all that is left is to transfer records after he is discharged.

I’ll now be picking him up Sunday and staying to Monday to help him resolve things at his old home arrangement. Then back to my house with him and a bunch of his stuff for an extended visit while we arrange for his proper move.

I was originally going to rent a nice new vehicle to make this happen. However, it hit me that we were definitely going to need 2 vehicles so that he can make appointments if I am working. I decided it was foolhardy to rent short term and turn around and attempt to solve the long term issue. So, I decided to just leap head first into a purchase.

We picked one of the Toyota dealers near us hoping for a Toyota Sienna. We got a very nice young man- Deshawn, that explained the logistics of leasing vs buying, and asked us how much we had available as far as down payment and monthly. He listened to our needs on the vehicle itself. He walked us through the logistics of our original hopes and explained he couldn’t get close to what we needed new, lease or purchase. He gave us several options in SUV’s and a minivan. Based on the prices, we thought the minivan was the best option and went to look.

When he took us to the car it was the exact same vehicle we had rented for the vacation last year, not by vin number, but by make, model, year, and color. I said thank you to God. This was the result:

It had low mileage and almost 2 hours later I walked out with another $300 monthly payment plus the increase in our insurance costs, because the sticker price is not the final cost unless you can pay the full amount in cash. It’ll be manageable, and solves a significant concern I’ve had for almost 2 years before the dad hiccup.

So now I have an almost new vehicle at used prices. The first since about 2003 for me.

I am very grateful and appreciative that solutions were found easily today, and especially that I have fixed things enough to be able to do what I did. It is very relieving to walk in stressed but hopeful, and walk out with a gently used, nearly new vehicle in great condition and having had no difficulty accomplishing the task.

I thank God for the help with this and see the guidance that led to this moment.

May you have relieving solutions to all your problems. May you see God’s guidance and assistance. May you know everything is going to be all right. May you know your place within all of it. May you know you are loved and supported by the Divine.

Siva Hir Su