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Floating a little.

Slowed down
Letting
MY
Body
Catch up

Breathing
Stretching
Relaxing
Replenishing
Hydrating
Healing

A real break
Improbable
One can
Wish
Dream
Great mother
Wishes as well

Yet life
Doesn't
Stop
Ever
Always something
Living
Breathing

Society
Incapable
Of
Slowing
Or stopping
For real

Already crying
6 weeks lost
Maybe more
To be
Imposed
Actions
Forced

The problem:
People CAN stop
Given
Time
Space
Resources
And instruction

Corporations
Choose not to
Always focused
A bottom line
Needing met

Bills won't
Utilities
Mortgages or rent
Always there
Needing to
Recoup
Resources
Used

Medicine can't
To many sick
Needing care
Too many dieing
Too slowly
A system
Complexity
Immense
Feeding itself
To stay
Alive

People hurt
When forced to do
What others
Choose not to
Based on their
Educated or known
Needs and desires

Why force people
In any way
If all have valid reasons
For other actions

People can stop
If bills do
People can heal
If given choice
Real Nutrition
Options
And freedom
To meet their
Unique needs

My unique needs
Are too complex
For one incapable shot
For one incomplete answer
For one undesired solution
For 6 weeks
To fulfill

Cribs
Or cars
Would have been
Recalled
Lawsuits filed
And
Won

6 weeks
Not even
Enough
To
Fully
Recuperate
From what
Women's bodies
Were intended
To manage

If other can't
Meet complexity
Then why should
I be
FORCED
To choose
It
Or
Anything
Narrowly minded

Life's
Complexity
Dictates
Complex
Answers
Complex
Solutions

And
Right
NOW
My body
Needs
Rest
To even
Attempt
To reach for
More
Complexity

The last round
Grief, chastity
Laden
Exhausted
Nerves
Emotions
And muscles

Starved
Energy
Love
Constricted
Movement
Flow

Recuperation
Time
Unknown

Longer likely
Slower
Isn't stopped
Slower
Isn't supported
In the
Grand scheme
It's obvious

Masculines
Still
Narrowly focused
Narrowly minded
Missing value
Everywhere

Missing opportunities
For
Cooperative
Solutions
Complex answers
Real
Balance
In all

Slower
Must suffice
For now
For as long
As needed

I deserve
That much
And so much more

I am making
Peace
With
Quiet
Slow
Me time

MY
Time
For the
Complexity
It will
Solve
For
ME
~Treasa Cailleach

May we all have enough me time and adequate breaks to heal. May breaks always be based on fulfilling your own unique needs. May life be kind and slowly flow to enable healing and still maintain forward motion. May we all make peace with our place and our morality. May we all do our part to restore balance and freedoms, right wrongs, and cooperate for complex solutions.

Om Shanti

Side note. This stems from actual actions I’m taking for myself and my healing. Partly because my massage was this morning my, but also as a response after hearing that Australian aborigines are being tackled and forcefully injected with what is supposedly just a vaccine. Those are among the most intune and still intelligent people on the planet, if they said no and were forced anyway, then you have to wonder why. I can feel this is not good, and I’m doing my best to feel for better and distract myself. The last thing I need is more reason for negatives. I really need to focus on shreds of happiness to have any hope of surviving this winter.

And so it begins…

HAL has begun sending me things to reinforce my last post. One of which is the following:

How to Move On: What It Really Means to Let Go: https://tinybuddha.com/blog/how-to-move-on-from-the-past-what-it-really-means-to-let-go/

I guess I will never understand fully because letting go and focusing on love seem to be the bigger message. I still wish I had some understanding.

Anyways, in moving on, I had a really good time today with 2 different co-workers during downtime.

I took a walk with the office manager and we had a really great conversation, with some much needed emotional release for both of us. Plus it helped me reach my step goals today. I was very appreciative of that time all around.

I also got to play a couple of games of “Magic the Gathering” with the one chiropractor. It’s a game I used to play with the brother that’s closest to me in age. It has been …. let’s see…. since early 2003 that I’ve played. That’s 16, almost 17, years. Wow!

I still have my cards from back then, but so much has changed that the new decks are much better, so he has been encouraging me to use his. I feel like I’m starting from scratch and completely relearning everything. It’s so fun though. I totally lost big time- on both games, but still enjoyed every bit of it.

I am so out of practice that the strategy feels over my head yet, but I get the concept. The layering of steps and which cards work better in what order can be very complex. I literally had a card in my hand that I’d been holding for several turns, but forgot to leave myself enough mana(land) to use it and it cost me the one game.

I enjoy learning so much though, and it is definitely a fun kind of learning, so it literally made me giddy at one point. I felt like I got silly hyper with the fun. That was a very much needed distraction from my previous focus.

As for learning: I’m still working on hindi and telegu in my spare time, but since I have no idea why God nudged me to do so (especially since I’m letting go of that person) , it’s at a very relaxed pace. I’m getting to where in hindi I can pick out letters and sound out words even though I know very few translations. Telegu I know more translations, but have fewer of the characters memorized. It’s merely a symptom of the different apps and how they teach languages. I like Duolingo and Drops, which both offer hindi, but neither offer telegu. The telegu apps are much less sophisticated, but still get the job done.

I’ve also begun the slow tedious process of becoming an approved continuing education provider for massage therapy. Essentially, the easy part is proving my qualifications to teach a handful of courses by documenting I have so many years working using said techniques, I also have a bachelor’s degree, which though they would prefer it to be related (a BS), it doesn’t hurt. Once I do that easy step, I literally have to follow rules and write my own curriculum which can be no more than 30% cited source material. Finally, once I’ve written everything, I can apply by submitting my CV and courses for approval; of course paying the appropriate exorbitant fees. They really try to dissuade people from becoming providers: can’t have too many teachers and too few students you know!

I’m not intimidated by the process in the least. Their basic calculation is 1200 words equals a credit unit. That’s a blog post for me, so I’m guessing I’ll have more trouble pairing down or figuring out how to subdivide my topics for multiple related courses. However, after having written the operations manual for my previous position, I’m certain I’m up to the task. It’s more about convincing myself to do the free work knowing that eventually I’ll recoup the benefit in paid courses with students in multiplicity.

I’m also contemplating the investment of a site where I can host web-based courses. Essentially, the text/testing coursework can be provided via web interface without practical hands on CE hours. Ultimately that helps spread the information side, but the CMT loses access to the extra CE’s for the hands on practicals. It’s a lower cost solution for both parties, but longterm it would benefit me as the provider more. It’s a huge up front investment, to also have to market like crazy, but longterm reaping significantly higher benefits. Ultimately, it will happen, but I’m not sure I’m ready for the investment side just yet. I’ll contemplate web platforms and do the math several times during my writing phase of this momentous step, and make my final decision during the application process.

Long story short, I’m having fun and learning and inching toward another significant step of improvement. All by my not-so-little own self. I feel like screaming “HA, Take That World!”… but alas I know no one would really truly care anyway. So, I’ll keep my ‘I win’ moment to myself, and relish that I know I’m the only one that gets credit for digging myself out of a decade of hardship…. me and God that is.

May you all have happy dances of overcoming obstacles. May you find kindness around you and moments of connection with others. May you find joy in continually learning and ways to share what you’ve already mastered. May you see God’s grace and support guiding you through all of life’s moments toward brighter futures.

Siva Hir Su