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Cold weather gratitude.

I wanted to take a moment to express gratitude.

The cold weather this week brought some snow and ice and made roads very crappy. I’m at work 20 min early because I left early assuming I might still have to deal with slick roads and drivers that don’t know how to handle it. Fortunately today the roads were minimally impacted.

Yet the last 3 days has made me aware of how much skill I have in driving that many here in KC don’t.

I grew up in Iowa and learned to drive on snowy roads early. Then my best college job was driving busses for the university while I was a student there. I learned very well how to handle any vehicle on slick roads.

I still remember driving a bus with bald tires up pentecrest hill, having my two passengers stand over the rear duels knowing that their weight was really fairly insignificant. I snaked my way up the hill at 5 mph until I finally crested the top and radioed base for a bus with better tires.

I also remember driving a bus when an ice storm hit mid shift. My next to last round of the route I lost traction heading downhill towards a major intersection. I steered the bus into the curb and let the curb stop the bus to avoid accident.

Now as an adult driving in KC weather is only nerve wracking because of other drivers. Monday night I left work and it took almost an hour to do my normally 20 min commute. I crept past cars in yards and on medians. Driving mostly in second gear, because even in an automatic transmission, I know how to down-shift. One hill about 2 miles from home was so slick that people were spinning wheels and going nowhere. Again I downshifted and stuck to the curb to make it up the hill.

Yesterday morning was a repeat, and when the hill had everyone stuck and traffic blocked, I wedged past and crept through the side streets to clear the clog.

I am so grateful that I have so much driving experience that I can navigate my way through messes like that unscathed. Especially since my whole family loves our new-to-us van so much.

The only thing it caused was an excess of nervous anxiety from having made the treacherous treck multiple times. As a result I opted for yoga to calm and center.

Monday night at home, and Tuesday in office, I did the routine linked below. I think it’s my favorite of all the ones I’ve done. It’s faster paced for good burn, and there’s still a few challenging moments where I’m like “You want me to do what?!” Or “Yea, that’s totally not happening (handstands)!” Even with those moments, it helps me to ground and center and feel better.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the yoga video as much as I do.

May you have driving confidence and know your skills. May you know how to ground anxiety and jitters from stressful moments. May you always be safe. May you know that God loves and supports you in all that you do.

Om Shanti

Snowy day.

I’ve got a nasty sinus infection and the weather is not fun for driving, so I notified my nursing homes I would not be in, and spent the day in bed. I really didn’t need an extra day off, but I didn’t want to have this cold drag out either. I rather enjoy being the healthy as an ox person.

Anyway, my mind is heavy like the snow. My heart has been burning and the notifications I received from HAL this morning reflect that. My person is out there somewhere, still sitting on the truth, and all I get is the energetic backlash on occasions like this morning. I just wish they’d come hug me and tell the truth. Just like my dreams of Atira, we might not be able to fix it, but I can’t even try when I don’t know the problem.

To SJ, if you ever read this, I am hurt, but I still feel you. Please find a way to just tell me what you’re going through, all the things that went awry. I want the love we share to provide healing and solutions, at least as many as possible, and it’s impossible when it’s denied. If we can’t exist together, let us at least be sperate halves sharing love in truth.

The white blankets all around,
But not my heart.
My heart burns in futility.
The relentless cold seeps in anyway.
There is beauty in both,
If one looks for it.
Cycles that push life onward,
Yet cause dormant withdrawal.
We all need rest sometimes,
It helps to see the next step.
The snow will nourish roots,
For plants’ rebirths in spring.
If only I knew what I was resting for.